Female sexuality in Adidam
Posted by Crone on Mar-10-03 4:11pm
It started out kind of as an experiment - or so we were told. Feckless Frank (hereafter FF) had been talking about how only women really understand women. Then it became "only women know what women want." FF spoke of his admiration for ancient oriental practices, as illustrated in the sex-manuals of wealthy potentates, especially the part about women having sex with each other. Only women know how to turn other women on.
Soon, in our study groups, we were meeting separately from the men. In one group, we sat in a circle and took our tops off. We were told that we would be examining learned sexual attitudes, such as that women shouldn't touch each other sexually. We were asked to close our eyes and reach over and touch the breast of the woman sitting next to us. How does it feel? we were asked by the group leader. Are you embarrassed, are you turned on? How does it feel to have your breast touched by a woman? Do you like it? It was a very stiff and uncomfortable group and it didn't go much further than that.
At the MOA, womens groups were going further. At one group, one of FF's intimates Janis Wood, lead the group. Women were naked. Women were dildoing each other. How does it feel? they were asked. They were encouraged to "feel into" their "resistance" to "being with" other women. They were encouraged to want to be with other women ... sexually. It was the way FF wanted it.
In Fiji, women were being "dealt with" by FF, about their sexuality. He especially went after the strong women, the ones with real intelligence and strength, the professional women. He dealt with them for days, tearing down their resistance, psychologically abusing them about their sexuality, convincing them that they were really lesbians, and that they were not satisfied sexually by their husbands. He worked over the husbands, too, of course. They were impotent, they had little dicks.
Of course there was a lot of alcohol flowing - it released inhibition. That should have been a warning, but we all took it as a blessing. We wanted our inhibitions released. We suffered them. We suffered the conventional, moral life that we had been raised to live. We trusted FF to show us a happier way, to release us from the bonds of existence. The shakti flowed as well, perhaps fueled by the alcohol.
All eyes and hearts were on Frank. His women intimates kept up a steady stream of praise for each of his pronouncements. "Oh Yes, Master. Oh Master you are so wonderful. Oh Master, that is so profound." and so on. Others in the room were there to support those being dealt with. "Surrender to the Master, don't react, let it go, breath to your belly, say his name. He is here to purify you. Oh, it is so blissful, it is so profound. That's right, just surrender. Feel into it."
He would choose a women to "be with" for the night. His women intimates made sure she was suitably drunk and free of her inhibitions. They escorted her to another room and began to "prepare her" for FF. They kissed and caressed, stimulated and aroused her. They dildoed her until she was "ready". Then FF came into the room and the women continued to do their work until he had had his way with her, whatever way it was that night.
I left the group in 1987. From all reports he has advanced to the state where he requires constant "pleasuring" by women, especially young women, and feels no restrictions on the kinds of sexual acts he will require her to perform. Hang her upside down anyone? "Story of O" otherwise known as "Happiness in Slavery". See the movie some day; you'll get the picture.
I think I've said about enough.
Posted by Sam on Mar-10-03 10:19pm
This type of carry on still happens in the community. I've got nothing against a bit of experimentation but when you're embedded in the community, the coercion is immense, you're not able to make a free informed decision as you're not seen to be practicing if you don't participate in the "consideration".
I know women in the regions who "prepare" each other for their Friday night intimate occasions with their intimates, the community massueses will perform genital massage as part of their routine on devotees and the partner swapping consideration still comes and goes.
But I'll never forget the time when at the MOA, I was typing a response to Adi Da on Lucky's computer in the communications room and I came across a letter that was still open. It was a response from one of the girls in the dasya mandala (inner circle) to Adi Da apologizing! for having sex with him and promising not to try and seduce him again! This was a couple of years ago shortly after Adi Da was making out that the quandra mai were his only intimates.
Poor girl - she was in her early 20s. It's hard to see how she will ever escape his clutches. Her mother is also in the dasya mandala.