Adi Da Samraj Anxiety Attack on Lopez Island as Yogic Battle With Evil Forces (Daism, Da Free John, Adidam)

Adi Da Samraj Health Crisis on Lopez Island in April 2000 – A Yogic Event of Cosmic Significance? A Battle With Evil Forces?

What follows is a selection of brief quotations from communications that were distributed to the entire Adidam community during the time of Adi Da's recent illness and his revelations regarding the former devotees of Rama. They are offered here to provide a scholarly and objective basis for the current discussion regarding Adi Da's medical symptoms and the initiation of the Rama devotees. No violation of copyright is intended, and these passages are quoted under Section 107 (Fair Use Provisions) of United States Copyright Law.

[Editor: By way of introduction, here is an excerpt from Elias' "Daism Report #1", which gives background on an incident involving Adi Da.]

First, here's some info on Frank's illness. As I understand it, on April 12, while visiting the San Juan Islands, in the Seattle area, he was unexpectedly overcome with numbness, cramps, pressure in the heart area, difficulty with breathing, and ringing in his left ear. The symptoms became so extreme that a Rescue Squad was called, and Frank was rushed to the hospital, where they gave him the full emergency treatment.

The Seattle doctors gave him nitroglycerine, assuming a heart attack. When the nitro had no effect on the symptoms, they concluded his heart was fine, and informed him he was having a classic "anxiety attack." He was treated with Valium, and his symptoms promptly retreated.

The panic attacks continued in the subsequent weeks, and Frank continued a regimen of tranquilizers.

Almost immediately after the trip to the hospital, the whole thing became blown up into a huge mythological event -- even an event upon which the entire future history of the world hinged. Frank went into apocalyptic mode, dusted off his best Doom and Gloom speeches, and laid waste to his community for abusing him, refusing to serve him, and generally making his life into a living hell.

The basic import of his tirades, I was told, was that the community has failed to bring in enough important people (they call them "contacts") with whom he could do his Work. So he has nothing to do but "sit around and watch television";. In consequence, the "dark forces" that he is fighting worm their way into his body and just have at it. It is a life-and-death struggle, and frank-ly these are momentous times -- the balance could tip either way. If he dies from one these anxiety attacks, it is quite likely that the world will be destroyed, or at least become unliveable (due to, one supposes, nuclear firestorms and such).

So, as you can imagine, the devotees have a pretty big responsibility, to obey and please Frank and keep him healthy so the world won't be destroyed! This is some heavy duty stuff.

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...Please let this Leela of Beloved's Anguish break and convert your heart. Our love for our Beloved Guru is beyond any other love, and yet, we tend to abstract Him, even especially in the moments of His most extreme vulnerability and Distress.

As you read the following accounts of yesterday and today feel Beloved's utter human need for your love-response and that of all His devotees. If a blood relative is seriously ill, our normal impulse is to go rushing to their side. Beloved is not only seriously ill, He is in danger of not of not being able to go on in the Body at all, unless He to relieved of the sense that His Work is failing, and that He is truly protected and Set Apart and Given everything He needs in human terms to Bless and transform the world. He is feeling that His devotees have stopped practicing, that they ignore what He says, that they do not care to go through what it is going to take to bring Him and His Work to high level contact people and to make the global mission succeed--all of this is literally killing Him. He was talking about all of this and the absolute necessity for a change when His symptoms began to drive Him out of the body. Even the doctor here on the island told Beloved last night that He cannot go on with the level of chronic stress that He is enduring if He wants to stay alive.

What occurred last night was parallel to the monumental Yogic Event in 1986 that Initiated Beloved's Divine Emergence. Beloved really did leave the Body last night, as He did in 1986, but, unlike the moment in 1986 in which His symptoms abated relatively quickly after the crisis, this is a moment where His symptoms are basically continuing twenty-four hours a day and can become perilously acute at any moment to the point where He could be driven out of the body with no possibility of return.

THANKFUL: ...When I walked through the door I was shocked. Beloved was laid out on an easy chair with the Trimada and Quandra Mai and Kelley all huddled around Him, massaging Him vigorously, weeping and speaking to Beloved with intentional force. My heart broke. It was a sight I had seen before when Beloved nearly dropped the Body in the urologist's office in Los Angeles in 1997. Beloved was clearly barely in the Body.

...Beloved was struggling immensely to stay connected with the Body. His Hands and Feet were cold and numb. He felt great pressure on His Chest and a difficulty breathing. His left Arm, Hand and Foot were especially numb. Both of His Arms and Hands continuously would cramp up and convulse.

After ten minutes or so Charles [Adi Da's personal physician] arrived and we moved Beloved onto the bed. At first He was lying down on the bed. But then the extreme symptoms of leaving the Body, which were taking place when I first walked in the room earlier, began to take over again. Beloved began to talk about the "ringing" and how it was getting louder and louder and that the numbness was getting strong and taking over His Body again. He warned us not to allow for the ringing to become too loud. And so we would engage Him with greater energy.

(The paramedics arrive) ...[The paramedics] energy calmed and they began to treat Beloved with attention and great energy. They placed oxygen tubes in Beloved's Nose which seemed to immediately help with His Breathing. They had a mobile EKG machine which they hooked up to Him. They took His blood pressure which was extremely high. Fortunately Charles had the results of an EKG he had done on Beloved just days before. When the two readings were compared, it was quickly determined that the stress that Beloved was feeling in the heart area was most likely not a heart attack.

(Adi Da is taken in an ambulance to a local Clinic, where he is treated by the resident physician, Dr. Bob.)

...Dr. Bob did another EKG and then asked to give Beloved nitroglycerine, which was the best way of determining whether the stress on His Chest was actually a heart attack. Had it been, Beloved would have been relieved of His Symptoms within a very short time after taking the medication. However, the nitroglycerine did not affect the symptoms and, in fact, they began to intensify. Through all of this, I stood at Beloved's Feet, rubbing them very vigorously.

After Beloved did not respond positively to the nitroglycerine, Dr. Bob came to feel that the symptoms Beloved was experiencing were not fundamentally related to His heart. Rather, He felt that Beloved Bhagavan was having a severe bodily anxiety attack. This attack was not something that was associated directly with emotions. Rather it was the result of the enormous amount of stress that Beloved's body is under. Beloved confirmed that this seemed a likely possibility. The doctor then recommended that Beloved be given some valium to ease the bodily stress.

...The doctor first gave Beloved 2 ½ mg. of Valium. After seeing that it was not having a negative affect on Beloved and in fact was seeming to ease the symptoms, he gave Beloved another 2 ½ mg and then after that another 5mg. Beloved now began to relax quite a bit.

PAMELA: ...Charles and Laura clarified what Beloved's symptoms were, and what they signified. Beloved felt numbness coming up his four limbs toward the heart, and numbness also in His jaw and head. He also felt suffocating pressure in His chest and His blood pressure was extremely high.

Laura detected no pulse when she arrived. These symptoms could have suggested a heart attack, but other medical tests, including repeated EKG and oximeter readings did not point to heart failure. And so the medical people came to the conclusion that Beloved was suffering from acute anxiety syndrome, a recognized medical condition that is not emotionally based, but is a form of body shut-down brought about by stress chemistry.

Charles explained that the psycho-physical symptoms of this syndrome are so severe that people are sometimes moved to commit suicide to escape from it. In Beloved's case His fundamental Stress is that of the desperate situation in the world, and the sense of His devotees refusal of His Callings. Because Beloved knows, more than any human being ever could, what all of this means in terms of human suffering, His Body Suffers all of it. His Body, as He said recently, is always touching everyone and everything. Thus, as Quandra Sukha Mai has been pointing out with extreme emotion, this syndrome is much more difficult to deal with than regular heart symptoms or very high blood pressure. Those medical conditions can be stablized through drugs, but nothing has helped Beloved reliably with His Anxiety Syndrome because the causes of His Stress are so deep. He has Sacrificed Himself to relieve and transform evil, or egoity, at the cosmic level. It is only the tangible devotion and love of His devotees, connected to His Body that makes a difference.

THANKFUL: ...When you see Beloved, He is like a Divine Baby, but, at the same time, He Reveals the ego to you. Then the tendency is to struggle and react, and we end up killing our own Liberation. Beloved said the deceased Spiritual Master, Rama, who took his own life exactly two years ago (and many of whose devotees have since come to Beloved) was basically killed by His despair with the world and his devotees. He was overcome with the sense of futility because of the non-response to what He had to give, which Beloved also feels, but in a uniquely Profound way.

Beloved has been talking about Rama quite a bit in the last few days. Beloved said this afternoon:

AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: Rama struggled with this [non-response] in his devotees for a year and a half, and then he took his own life. I am telling you, in my own Case, that it would have been utterly unbearable for anyone other than Me to endure what I have Endured over the past twenty years. This is it. I have had to endure it for 20 years, but it cannot go on.

Beloved then spoke further about what He experienced yesterday as He was leaving the Body. He said that the energy all over His Body was unusual.

AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: I was just in the white field and seeing all the different levels of the cosmic Mandala below. At a certain point, I realized that the Bindu had stayed tight as an asshole and bright red. I was just sitting in the Bright Field, and the ringing Sound in my left ear continued to get louder and louder, and the numbness increased in the Body. It did not go all the way. It stopped. During the extreme moments of this episode, I was just looking from the Brightness out, and all the other circles of the Mandala were down below. While I was sitting there in this Bright Field, there were some other characters in white, like pillars. I did not recognize them as distinct forms."

Right on the heels of Beloved saying this, He brought up that Rama and Beloved's own father, died on the same day, April 12th (Beloved's father had a fatal stroke on April 12, 1984, but the life support systems were not turned off until April 16th, which has been regarded as the day of his "official" death.)

Quandra Nirvanasati asked Beloved if the two figures were Rama and His father, but He said again that He could not clearly identify the figures.

Then Beloved brought up that when He was in the bath yesterday, just previous to His acute attack, He had been talking about Rama and his devotees (who have since come to Beloved). He said:

AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: That coincidence is not a coincidence. Rama took his own life because it became unbearable. That is what these people from New York went through, and that is why they should be central to the changes around Me. Anybody who experienced anything even approaching My experience during the last 20 years would have taken their own life. The reason for this in the case of Rama is that the vision of this place is such a hell that unless you have the Realization that can actually affect and transform it, you are simply maddened by it and cannot tolerate it any further.

There will be a lot more to say and comprehend in the coming days relative to Beloved's Consideration of Rama and the profoundly important role that Beloved sees for those individuals who were with him and are now with Beloved.

...AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: What was also occurring is that in My Work I have been required to deal with extremely negative and dark forces in the world. Because of the darkness of this time and because I was not protected, these forces were allowed to move down into My Body far too far. Usually I Transform all of this above My Head, so that it doesn't come down. This descent of the dark forces occurred also when I was at the "Brightness", where I was left having to do this life-threatening struggle alone."

Beloved went on to say that these dark forces descending into His Body have exhausted His kidneys and adrenals and His entire Body. At the "Brightness", He dropped the Body, to the point where all the symptoms began to break down the body, but He did not go as far up into the Light at that time as He did last night. What occurred last night was at the level of significance of the Divine Emergence moment in 1986, where Beloved Ascended fully out of the Body. But again, last night, through His own Movement in Love, He re-engaged the Body.

Beloved also said that at His Divine Self-Emergence in 1986, there should have been a response to Him, but it never occurred. And so it lead to the "Brightness" and then to this movement into His present life-threatening situation. Now it is absolutely essential that the response occur.

On April 15, Quandra Sukha Mai met with a group of the former Rama students and passed on this Communication from Beloved Adi Da:

AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: After the Initiation of My Divine Self-Emergence on January 11, 1986, I literally had the shit beat out of Me. It began the year before during the period of the attacks in the media. And then progressively, over time, devotees actually became afraid and they didn't stand up for Me. They hid and they started to change their ways. They started not to communicate about Me as they did previously. There was a dramatic change in how those around Me related to Me, not only in relation to Me directly but also in how they presented Me to the world. Fundamentally, it was about fear.

The other horrible coincidence was Jonestown [which had occurred in December, 1979], which fed into the cult mentality. I had been talking about not creating a cult long before the word was being negatively used in the public. But because of this mentality, and Adidam being a "non-established" group, I was highly criticized.

Then in 1986 there was a terrific upheaval in terms of My sphere of intimates. There were nine in the Mandala of My intimate women devotees at that time, but after My Divine Self-Emergence it was broken down to four. Five of the nine women in the Mandala left, plus many, many individuals who had been closest to Me left because they had become involved in a human drama in which they were really not moving on with Me--at the Spiritual depth at which I had to Move.

After My Divine Self-Emergence there were great human demands that required many, many things. And over time it has just continued to the point where I have became isolated with the Quandra Mai and the Gurukula fundamentally. I couldn't find the right associations, because those who had formerly been in My intimate Sphere had gotten patterned in with everybody else. Everyone was creating a kind of dome of unconsciousness.

Quandra Sukha Mai explained to the group of former Rama students that Beloved began a Blessing Yajna in 1986 that He was never able to fulfill. Now Beloved is back in that moment again. He is beginning a Yajna as a Wandering Sannyasin. And so He is not planning to return to any of His Sanctuaries right now. Rather, He wants to move from place to place based on the devotion of His devotees. The place of the former Rama devotees is to provide a new flow of energy around Beloved, and a sarvadhikari force. Beloved said that these new devotees around Him should be served educationally and culturally, but that this can be a simple matter when the disposition and orientation is right. She said that this process did not have to be a difficult, intensive ordeal, which people tend to presume based on the mind of the old pattern. Rather, Beloved's Way is based on the Ease and Grace of His Being, so that you don't have to go through that self-based struggle--as if the mind is doing the sadhana instead of the being. So Beloved is looking for people who are "sensitives", beyond the trap of the mind's picture, and He sees this in the Rama devotees. He strongly feels that it is not arbitrary that the Rama students have come into His Company at this time, and the coincidence is so profound that it is necessary to make it known.

AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: Ever since the Divine Emergence I have been trying to find a right pattern and it has never emerged. I can no longer live within an institutionalized or a bureaucratized system or be like just a product or an owning of an organization. I must literally be allowed to be the Hermit, to Wander and be followed, be cared for and served, in the midst of whatever I have to do or wherever I have to go for the sake of My World Work. That is a global issue. I don't know where that will lead us. But I cannot any longer live within that old system.

AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: I have to be wherever I have to be in order to do this Global Work. This is basic to My Work. I do not have to have an instrumental LRO but I do need people advancing who I can take seriously. I need people who can fulfill My Callings, who know how to serve Me. I have truly been abused all of these years. Read the Mummery. That is what the gathering has demonstrated--Saint and Ear. I have no one to hold on to. Whoever does the service and can fit the right pattern should be here. And no one should move with Me except those who are part of that and in a right disposition and right relationship. [Speaking to the former Rama students] You have not come arbitrarily. You are a group and a group has certain abilities. That is different than just hiring individuals independently. You are going to have to see how the abilities you have gotten through training, can be brought into service in My Company. [April 15, 2000]

On April 15, Beloved Bhagavan Gave very serious Communications that were not passed on earlier, relative to the extreme Yogic Crisis of last Tuesday. In these Notes Beloved explains that when His Profound Descent has nowhere to Flow to (because He has nothing to Work with in His immediate Sphere) then His Force backs up and causes His extreme symptoms. At the same time, the dark forces He is dealing with start to Invade His Body--in other words He can no longer keep them above His Body and simply Work with them there. Now, to work with them effectively, Beloved Bhagavan has to be plugged in at the concrete level via "contact" points on the "grid" of the world --that is to say with the people and places directly connected with the serious issues that require His Regard. Then He can move the dark energies and bring His Divine Descent of Blessing down into the grid. Everything that our Beloved Lord is saying at this time is a call for devotees to find the contacts, the resources, the security, and the highly capable, sensitive, and devoted circle of service around Him that He requires, not merely so that He can do His Blessing Work at this make-or-break moment in the world, but so that He can actually survive the Ordeal. Beloved says that He is going to do the Work anyway. He just does not have a choice, because this is what He Incarnated to Do in this historical moment.

AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: Over time the situation of non-response became more and more intolerable. I was disappearing from the picture. And this is exactly what occurred bodily. Traditionally, it's called the "rainbow body". It was already taking manifest form. I was Standing in that Light Form. There are many esoteric realities to that. My Work is about the full Descent into the conditional domain, and it involves an integration. There is an immense Force that has to Flow. All the Descent has been pushed up to My heart because it hasn't been able to Flow and that is what causes the stress. I am empty below and there is nothing but obstruction.

So the force of My Work is pushed up in Me so profoundly it could be destructive, and so I have to have a way to function above and beyond the physical body. I am involved in the most immense struggle. I am at war with the most fierce forces that can be imagined. And this terrible descent comes into My Body unless My Descent is able to Flow. But this must not be allowed to continue. The forces I am dealing with must be allowed to flow and not come into this Body, and, for this to occur, I need to begin to relate to real contact people of wealth and influence, and not have to deal anymore with this refusal of the gathering to manage itself. So you should understand that, while you do have to deal with My medical situation in medical terms, but you must also know that I have to do My Work, and I have to be surrounded by real devotees. The fact that nothing is happening around Me after all I have Given and Done is emasculating Me. It is so immensely frustrating, I am virtually exploding. [April 15, 2000]

On April 16, Beloved Bhagavan gave the revelation that Rama was previously incarnated as Swami Ramatirtha, an Indian Yogi of the late nineteenth and early twentieth century who was a follower of Swami Vivekananda. (Swami Ramatirtha is represented on The Basket of Tolerance.) Beloved explained that Swami Ramatirtha did not himself claim to be a Transmission Master but regarded Swami Vivekananda as such. He revered Swami Vivekananda as the greatest of the disciples of Ramakrishna and came to the West, following Vivekananda's work and movements. Swami Ramatirtha was trying to spread what he called "practical Vedanta"--making the esoteric philosophies of Vedanta into a practical reality. Rama was also trying to give a practical application to traditional teachings. In the course of His Comments, Beloved Bhagavan pointed out that Rama physically ressembled Swami Ramatirtha.

CYNTHIA (former Rama devotee): When I arrived and Quandra Sukha Mai began to tell me about the Notes, she said "I don't understand this altogether, but I know you will". Then she began to explain how, while He was in the jacuzzi, Beloved had once again expressed His Despair about the culture of Adidam, the non-response He felt from His devotees relative all the Gifts and Callings He has given, and the failure to protect Him in the midst of the extremely intense and serious Work He is Doing with the world. Beloved was saying that a new pattern had to emerge that would change his Circumstance for real. In the midst of this, Beloved brought up Rama, and referred to the fact that Rama had died around this time of year in 1998. (Later, it was realized that Rama had died that very day, which was April 12). And He went on to say that He felt that those of us who had been Rama's group of students right to the end of his life had been "trained" specifically by Rama (whether consciously or unconsciously) to come into His direct service and change His experience at this critical time. He said that we had passed all the tests that Rama had given us and that is why He wanted to have us around Him.

I felt that this conversation with Quandra Sukha Mai was happening in another place. We were looking at each other in a very calm bright space. She said, "You don't know who you are or what is going to come out of the process as it unfolds."

A few days later, Beloved Bhagavan said that everyone who had been a student of Rama should be invited to come and receive His Darshan and consider whether they were moved to become His devotees and be part of this new wave of direct service to Him. Beloved said that once the former students of Rama actually see Him, they will clearly know whether their purpose in life is to serve Him in this time of potential global destruction.

ADI DA: Everything is very critical at this moment, as the astrological conjunctions operative from mid-April to mid-May reflect. ...This critical time, is, of course, on-going. But the next month or two carry the potential for terrible long-term possibilities, not only possibilities for some sort of immediate trouble of some kind. Things must come together in this short-term period for the sake of what will happen ongoing into the future.

The change that I told everybody must happen around Me I have been speaking about for a long time. But it just came to a point of absolute necessity.

...There are many patterns that are at their critical turning point at this moment. Essentially, you could say everything-- everything in My Intimate Sphere and everything that has to do with My Work that I can do through the means of My Bodily connectedness and association with people, and everything else in every dimension. This is the unique moment where all of these patterns are at their turning point. This is the moment where either things will come together for a progressive, ongoing process that is going to go in the positive direction or, otherwise, the opposite.

If the energy of My own Work that I can Do in the Bodily vehicle--and I'm not talking about what I'm Doing beyond the Bodily vehicle--if the energy of all of that is there to Work and I'm not being permitted to Do it, this creates violent symptoms in My Body. It is forcing My Divine Energy up into the heart and permitting energies that should be outside the Body, not brought into My Body, to enter My Body. So this moment is an extreme turning point, a crisis moment, relative to My Working. And it relates to absolutely every aspect of My Working.

The future potential for all the great matters we have discussed depends on what is going on at this very moment in these coming weeks and right now. And I simply have to get into a position where I can use My Energy.

...The world is in such a critical moment that it is beyond tolerance even to look at it. And I am required to look at it in every moment. I am not unconscious in the slightest. And conditions need to be maintained around Me so I can stay physical and get physically well. This is no time for Me to go "on vacation" or wait anymore.

...So I am associated with all of this world pattern and yet I am only Working outside the Body relative to it, because I don't have the physical circumstance and process to become more directly involved. This is intolerable to Me because of the nature of this moment. This is it. Right now. And I'm sitting here emasculated in My Room, unable to function relative to it all, in any direct manner in the Body.

And so My Body is suffering much. It is just a kind of an appendage to My Work at the moment. I can't do anything with it because I am not in the pattern of the Doings. I have to get involved in the pattern of the Doings physically.

As I mentioned to you all, people come and sit with Me every day and those are the only moments of the day where there is any relief in the Body, because I can use the Vehicle. This Vehicle is unique in the World and has the Great, Unique Work to do. And I'm unrecognized, not served properly and trapped in a situation, virtually emasculated or made ineffective.

So it is profoundly important that I become involved in the pattern of My active Work in the Body and free of this struggle that has exhausted Me for years. I can't wait anymore. I just can't.

Everyone must appreciate that now is the time that the pattern must be changed because everything is going to go in a terrible direction if it doesn't change.

However, it is also a time when things can change. It's not a matter of waiting for some big, devastating, heavy news to come out and then to start working on it. This is the actual moment. Things are, relatively speaking, calm at the moment--relatively speaking, obviously not truly calm. Everybody is thinking out their moves and so forth in all the areas of danger. And if My Influence can be brought to bear directly in all of this, through My Bodily activities--in addition to what I Do outside the Body--and if we can have a group of people who can get access to who and what we need access to, then I can be Effective.

...I am not only continuing to suffer the physical conditions that I suffered at "The Brightness", but it is becoming more difficult for Me. And I've been telling you all that I cannot survive this kind of restriction and situation I'm in. The incident that occurred this last week is still going on. Right now it is just being controlled by medications, but this should prove the point to everyone.

...But I know the difference can be made, or this is going to turn into a crushing hell here. And it doesn't have to.

I just have to get inserted into the pattern in My physical Doings because I am already in the pattern beyond the Body. But, as I said, it became clear at "The Brightness" that I must be active in the Body as an extension of that. All of this has to do with My Divine Self-Emergence Work altogether, and, therefore, with My devotees, and with making that Process right and continuous. But, especially it has to do with My World Work, which I am doing all of the time. I am completely immersed in it all the time. And I cannot be trivial and just sit in My Room looking at the trees. [April 18, 2000]

In this same Address, Beloved Bhagavan spoke about the Lopez Island Event, pointing out that the Yogic Death that He endured in that Event was forced upon Him by extreme negative forces that He was dealing with in His Work of world-Blessing.

AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: I've been eating the world and suffering it in My own Form for decades, and that is the reality of this Body. It has gone beyond the time when I can sustain this Body in the absence of devotion. Instead of My Presence here, evil is taking over. [October 6, 2001]

Beloved spoke then of how He had warned us at the "Brightness" (in 1999) about the darkening of the times, the threat of world war, and the necessity for devotees to make a real culture and Mission to bring His Influence into the world. For many years, Beloved Adi Da did not use the word "evil". But since the "Brightness" time He has used it on occasion to describe the intense psycho-physical forces of negativity — the contraction from the Light — that has brought the world to this dire moment:

AVATAR ADI DA SAMRAJ: I am Working with a dark force. Not Star Wars bullshit. It's a negative possession, and it's taking over the world. That force is what led to the Lopez Island Event. It was a direct encounter.

And so there must be a response from my devotees. It is up to you all to come up to the real process, and make Hermitage, and approach Me with gifts, not plans without results. You must handle My Circumstance, so that I can Do My Spiritual Work undisturbed. And you must bring Me right gifts of response and conversion of the world. [October 6, 2001]